It rarely happens, but I have heard that lightening oddly strikes twice everyone and then. We beat ourselves up over missed opportunities and poor decisions, and to no avail. It is pointless to clutter up our already messed up lives with regrets, yet it is a common human affliction. I have spent the last week pounding on myself.
Unfortunately the bruising is more than literal with the reality of two nasty falls in two days. Not only should I have had a stitch, or two, or even three, on my forehead, my upper arm resembles that of a domestic violence victim. All because I lost my balance and crashed into a stone wall on my back porch. As head wounds are like to do, I bled on and off for a day and cannot find a comfortable sleeping position that avoids all contact of said wounds. But it is getting better.
That was Saturday's fall. On Sunday I found myself prone on the kitchen floor after turning too quickly, I guess, and landing on my knee. Ouch. I say "I guess" here because I really have no recollection of how this happened. Does that ever happen to you? One minute yo are upright and the next your perspective of the world is from a new and weird angle? It is almost as if you black out for a strange second.
The only link to these two situations that I can fathom is that my mind has been absolutely cluttered with a regretful lack of judgement in decision making about qa matter that could have changed my current life. I just go too much inside my own head.
A second chance is what I needed even though I realize that reality does not work that way.
Or maybe it does?
Just this once?
Have a good weekend,