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I Am Empty

On Monday, I wrote about purpose. My philosophy is that everyone needs a purpose and more importantly, to feel purposeful.

At 6:45 AM I was sitting in front of my computer as I always am; but there were no words to share with you. 

I was empty.


Since beginning this 31 blogs in 31 days of MS Awareness, my fondness for the project has grown. I think about what I w3qnt to say all the time. I go to bed each night with fresh and exciting ideas floating around in my head, often making sleep come slowly as I construct and reconstruct sentences for the morning's post.

Last night I could not think of a thing I was ready to share.

I was empty.

Even now, after staring at my keyboard for an hour, reading the newspaper, watching some morning news, eating breakfast, and getting dressed for the day, I have nothing of interest to share with you.

I am empty.

My apologies.

I am normally not a depressed or depressing person, but today I just do not feel the positive light that normally propels me into  action. I kinda feel like my life hasn't been worth a whole lot of anything. I have made quite a few horrible decisions in my life and I am experiencing the repercussions. I didn't plan well for my future and my family is suffering for my lack of insight.

I can usually pull myself up by the boot strings and put things into perspective, but today I think I just need to wallow a bit.

I am empty.

Maybe tomorrow there will be words.

Sorry,
Lisa






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