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MS-related life

Someone told me not long ago that I cannot blame MS for everything.

 I understand the cautionary remark, but after giving it some thought, I must disagree. When you are living with MS, everything is MS related. 

Your diet is MS related. Your physical ability is MS related. Your hobbies are MS related Your social life is MS related. Visits to the grocery store are MS related. Daily routines are MS related. 

MS might not define who you are, but MS plays a huge part of what you can and cannot expect  of your body. 

Last week  I moved my son into his college dormitory. After weeks of planning mentally and emotionally, I was not certain I would be able to complete this task without suffering one big humiliating meltdown. Or falling down. Or peeing myself. 

But I did.

With no blubbering. No tears.

Now I look around the house and just wish he was here. And the tears pour.

I just have to keep reminding myself of what an exciting adventure this should be for him. But I just want to hold him one more t…
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I'm Back!

I'm back! Sorry for the delay. I could blame it on Cog Fog, but that would be giving the Monster far too much power...Silly me forgot to renew my domain. So, if you have had trouble viewing lady with the cane, it is because the site was cancelled.

My fault.

We're back in business now.

I'm sure you're relieved. I know I certainly am.


Hug it out: the affectionate side of multiple sclerosis.

Hugging. Isn't it great? Whether I am canoodling with my anti-affectionate cat, a friend,  or my hubby, there is no doubt that a good hug is the perfect remedy to soothe and inspire a positive outlook.

Except when that hug comes in the middle of traffic on a busy freeway...and you are behind the wheel. Yeah, traffic and hugs don't really mesh.

The first MS hug I experienced was after the birth of my son. I can identify it now. Back then I was concerned that my pregnancy had caused some unknown internal condition that required further medical attention. The hugging sensation occurred every time I got behind the wheel of my car. I had to adjust and re-adjust my posture constantly in an attempt alleviate the persistent pressure around my rib cage. I would take deep breaths and arch my back, roll my shoulders back and forth,  and basically perform an assortment of yoga poses all while doing my best to appear normal to any  curios glances.

It was after many years of sporadic discomfor…

There is no escaping the MonSter.

Y'know, sometimes I wish I could do something, anything, without the presence of my constant companion. It would be so nice, so refreshing so freaking awesome to leave MS behind for just a day or two.

But, no, the MonSter insists on crashing every event on my agenda. It would be so nice to just be normal for once. I really hate that term, but there is no other way to accurately describe it. When my husband of a dozen years surprises me with an anniversary dinner at one of our favorite restaurants, I start the evening by crawling around on the gravel in the parking lot. So I've already started our anniversary trip to the mountains in mortifying humiliation and with a torn up knee.

After dinner we head on up the mountain to our oasis. I just know once we get here and reunite with our camping buddies, all will be well. Cuddled around the campfire, swapping stories, adult beverages in hand, there could be no better life, until... I feel a growing trickle of warmth flooding around me…

L 300

Good Monday!

Big do-in's last week in my MS World.

After wearing myself out with my petty pink leg, I finally got brave and called Hanger Clinic to inquire about the L300 Walk Aid.

Several years go I was fitted for an older version but when insurance did not recognize the device as a necessary medical item, my  hopes were dashed and I gave up.

On a whim I renewed my interest to discover a newer model called the L300. Where the original device required a shoe insert AND a leg cuff, the L300 is just a cuff. So, of course I figured this would be even MORE expensive. But, I made an aoppointment any way.

The certificated orthopedist clinic owner encouraged me to contact my insurance to inquire again. Guess what? With the medical code he gave me as well as a letter of authorization, insurance will pay 80%! It is still a bit pricey but I think I can wing this!

I just hope this is the route for me. With the assistance of Walk Aid, I can wear regular shoes or even go bare foot!  I know it will r…