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Dear MonSter, I hate you.

Dear MonSter, 

I am really, really mad at you right now. Normally I refuse to place blame on anyone or anything for which I have some semblance of control. I am in charge of my life and I will not honor anything as evil  as you in taking credit for anything that forces my emotions to jump out with such force. But, today, I have to. You are the culprit in all that is cry-worthy.

You and you alone are the reason that my son has closed himself up in his room right now. He came to me a while ago to ask about lunch. I knew it was time to feed us and I was anxious to do jut that. But when he found me here at my desk I was not entertaining the menu. I was crying. 

No, I was sobbing. Full blown, snot producing anxiety attack wretches. 

Why? Hell if I know. but once it started there was no controlling it. 

I tried to tell him that I was just wasting important time feeling sorry for myself, but I could't get enough air in my lungs to talk. Forget about trying to fake it and covering up the appar…

My new AFO dream: Cane or no Cane?

MS and would think after over thirty-three years as a public educator that I would tire of all the "alphabet" indicators, but it is just a way of life. 

At my new medical adviser's advice I began physical therapy two weeks ago and, if nothing else, am happy with the structured time dedicated to necessary stretching and strength building exercises. I am a bit more motivated to fight back against the MonSter.

Rebecca, my therapist, is extremely helpful, encouraging, and, and uplifting. She not only takes an interest in our time together, but is brutally honest in her assessment of my physical health. She goes out of her way to assist me in ways no other medical professional has...and she gets excited about doing so.

In fact, during tomorrow's appointment, I am to meet with a specialist to discuss the possibility of getting an affordable AFO (ankle foot orthosis) to light the offensive two on my right foot that interfere with walking. When Rebecca asked during my …

If you like MS, you might love MS...The Pinterest irony.

If you like MS, you might love MS...

As a rookie Pinterest user, I am fascinated with the wealth of information, viable or not, that is shared n this site. The research is pretty much done for you. Not only do people go cray sharing sites and ideas, but the computer itself offers additional "likes", which is great. Unfortunately, a computer cannot measure the human aspect of language.

Personal knowledge of this very real truth came several years ago when the West Virginia State Board of Ed decided that scoring/evaluating student writing would best be done electronically rather than by actual English teachers. Remember the writing assessment? Every summer one hundred teachers from around the state  camped together in some pre-destined place of comfort for a week of unbiased "grading." Not only did this offer a much needed stipend for the participating teachers, we learned a great deal about the students of WV, we formed a kinship of like-minded people, gained insight …